Tired

I feel so tired and drained. I'm currently in the library, supposedly repeating some of my maps, but then here I am writing.

I feel so tired. I do lack sleep. I have exerting more effort physically because I now have taken a cleaning job in the Student Union. It pays well and the work is not at all disgusting. But then I have to wake up at 5 am to work from 6 to 8am. I work the whole time without the help of coffee, or any form of caffeine... (Which is really a good thing for me. I don't depend on caffeine to wake me up anymore.)

I feel so tired. Exactly last year, I arrived back in the Philippines for a month's rest. My trip home in the middle of the schoolyear was really spontaneous. That's it... I lack spontaniety. For a person who lacks routines, I've certainly slacked off and succumbed to daily activities. I hate routines. I absolutely hate it.

I miss working at home. It was a year routine - office, travel, dive, return home, report, trainings... But not a daily one...

I feel so tired. How I wish I could be by the beach now... Enjoying the sun and the water... The cool breeze... And the occasional halo-halo or fruit in season.

Oh dear... I really miss home.

Bloody Hell it is BLUE!!!

Hehe... I love working under the supervision of Dr. Timothy Stevens!
He didn't paint my first draft bloody red! He commented with my favourite colour!!! It's blue! So blue! Well not as blue as I expected, which is good!

I then spent yesterday walking around town and then a bit of grocery shopping. Earlier today, I spoke to my Nanay then went out to meet with Helen and Zoraida for coffee... I drank two cups of Brasil Santos coffeee! And I feel so energized even it's my rest day.... I also made hell of a pork adobo... Which my personal Christian Bale (a.k.a. Richard Lewis) loved. The world is seems to rotating properly!

I'm happy. I'm satisfied... I will rock next time!!! ;o)


(I'm crazy I know. You don't have to tell me.)

The Strategist

I needed a time out and took an online test that Romel took...

It's scary!

It said I am a:

INTJ - The "Strategist"

Myers-Briggs Personality Types (Free Test)

INTJs are introspective, analytical, determined persons with natural leadership ability. Being reserved, they prefer to stay in the background while leading. Strategic, knowledgable and adaptable, INTJs are talented in bringing ideas from conception to reality. They expect perfection from themselves as well as others and are comfortable with the leadership of another so long as they are competent. INTJs can also be described as decisive, open-minded, self-confident, attentive, theoretical and pragmatic.

*INTJ stands for - Introverted, Intuition, Thinking and Judging

Disappointment of being half-baked

I feel like a huge anvil has been removed from my head and off my shoulders just now. But then there is a thing piercing my OC-ness, because I wasn't quite satisfied that that anvil was removed. Why? It's because we are talking about my MSc dissertation!

I feel eewlllwwkkkk (that sound that I make when I feel awful and/or disgusted) because I just submitted a half-baked draft of my thesis manuscript. And not only that, I submitted it a day late too. :o( I really can't say that I wish I had more time, because I was given almost 3 weeks (18 days) to complete the task. But then, I wish I could have done more. Read more. Analyze some more. Wrote some more.

A first draft is a first draft. Ate Rina said something about writing something and getting it all perfectly in one sitting is really impossible. Well, if it is a blog entry, I really don't mind about typos or missed words or grammatical errors. I never edit blog entries because it is a blog entry. Other than that, I have a knack for changing and censoring stuff if ever I re-read a blog post even before posting it. I suddenly feel embarrased and afraid to show people about things that makes sense to me, because it might not make any sense to them. I actually have a lot of entries floating around my computer, but I hardly put them on the internet because I suddenly feel errr... to display them for the world to see.

Anyway, it is a first draft of my manuscript. I expect it to be bloody. Bloody because of all that red ink/ font color splashed around page after page. I expect comments such as-- how about the stat analysis for this? Can you do something to improve your map? Define and expound on your terms more! You wrote a lot of gibberish! It is more than the required number of words!... Oh dear, I'm getting ahead of myself. OC-OC-OC-OC-OC!

Oh well. I'll leave it be. I'm currently doing my laundry, after that a good floor hoovering will help me release all this feeling of disappointment (and probably a bit of self-loathing). How I wish we had a tub or a pool that I can soak all my misery in. I need lots of hugs! People! I need hugs! Come to me!

(It is my bloody MSc thesis! I have the right to be nervous!)

Maybe I should ask a hug from Tim (my thesis supervisor) tomorrow? At least I know I won't be facing a scary Brit winging about my work. Awww.... At least it is comforting to know that I can always laugh out loud around my Aussie advisor. "Bonza sport! Fancy a tinny?"

Greetings - Christmas, New Year and Birthdays

I am a day late, so I guess it is inappropriate to say Merry Christmas to everyone. In any case, I hope everyone had a great Christmas with our without family, but hopefully, at the very least spent with friends.

I don't get to spend that much computer time in the Lewis' household, since there's so much to do. It is cold and frosty here in Wales, despite that, I'm loving the fresh crisp air. I don't get that much often anymore.

I will update everyone, as soon as I can grab hold of my computer and some alone time. But for the mean time, I hope everyone is doing well. Happy New Year! And Happy birthday to those celebrating their years these coming days.

Ingat lagi! Mwazz and hugss!



Coming up soon: Reflections of 2007